It’s been four days.
Four days and I’m already struggling to continue believing that I’ll ever see them again. I’ve been in my job for just over 2 years, but recently moved to a new location only 4 months ago (best decision ever!). I gained a family of 23 and they’re one of the best things to ever happen to me.
The build up to my maternity leave, and walking out of that door on the 11/10/2017, I never thought I’d go a day without contact. I’m fully aware that it’s completely normal to not speak to family, let alone friends every single day. Yet I crave the presence of them all so much; calm down Em!
I can’t wait for the next 30 days when this little one pops out and I can introduce them all. Although, if I had it my way, I’d go there straight from the hospital. NOT GOOD.
I know I get overly attached, but I’m starting to think I have a problem.
I just feel as if I need to hear one of them speak to me, wind me up, make me a simple cuppa, or I them. Just one of them to talk to.
Before being on maternity leave, it consisted of; being excited to go into work the next day and just thinking of what that day would bring. I know a lot of people don’t get excited over their job, a simple 9-5 does them well. They go in, do their stuff, go home and relax. It’s different for me. I live to help people, and so being a Support Worker feels like home. Not only that but I work with some of the most inspiring people.
Being on maternity leave; I struggle to move from my bed (okay, me moving house doesn’t help) and I sleep… A LOT. I know I’m meant to rest, but I’m not used to it and if anything, it brings me down.
These blues are the hardest, because you’re waiting. Waiting for a text; a call. Waiting for the little one to come say hi! For me? It’s also waiting to move into my new home. The waiting game does completely drown you of your motivation. You don’t want to do anything because you feel like you shouldn’t, and then you don’t want to annoy anyone with your constant ‘How’s it going?’ messages. The best place is literally under your duvet, in your favourite pyjamas, cuddling your furry friend with an endless supply of chocolate.
I don’t yet have the answer for anyone (let alone myself) on how to ‘cure’ maternity blues. I’m sure a lot of people will say “Just message them. I’m sure they won’t mind.” They probably won’t, but I can’t help but overthink the situation. Just know that time does fly, and you’ll probably be back to communicating as if you never left before you know it; especially with a bundle of joy on your lap.